I have lost myself in life……

I have lost myself in life……

That sound profound but its true. I have lost myself in life. Basically I have let my secular life take over in place of my spiritual life. I recently won an award with my company for “Outstanding Marketing Consultant of the Year” I was deeply honored with the award but over the last couple of days I have begun to wonder….at what cost? I have been reflecting on this and came up with several things. My time with God.(or better yet…lack of time with God) I believe if my time on this Earth came to an end today I would stand face to face with Jesus and He would say to me….”Oh yeah I remember you….you are the Steve Taylor, we used to talk all the time….hey its been a while.” I would say I have been so busy with everything in my life I know our relationship has suffered…..but….” You see, it’s the “but” that scares me. Many of my friends out there know my heart…..and yes while good intentions are one thing, following through is another. I am currently reading Adam Hamilton’s book “Revival”. I see myself all over chapter 1 and I have a lot of shame in that. I see myself in need of revival. I used to pray everyday, not so much anymore, I used to read the Bible everyday, I can’t remember the last time I picked up a Bible just to read His word. I work for a church and yes I do ministry there, but that in my eyes is action without faith. In other words its just work.

Folks, its time for me to go look for and find that person I was about 5 years ago, one who was faithful in his life as a Christian and not an “almost Christian” or a “half Christian”. Its time for my “revival” to take place. I do not know the path I will take to get there but I will get there. I have let a lot of my friends down because I have cared so much about my job that I have not been there for them. Its time to fond that Steve Taylor again……The good news is…I WILL find him and like the lost sheep I will be found. What about you? Does this relate to you in any way? Come join me and we can find ourselves together….